Last year it dawned on me. That I can't continue living on how I live. Every day looked the same. I woke up, I got a coffee, I went to work, I went home, I went to bed. And while the work was challenging it didn't make me content, it wasn't something that I would want to keep doing and doing. In peak times I had 14 meetings, often interviews. I was no longer doing what I actually love. Building, designing, creating. Instead I was interviewing, hiring, managing and worst case firing. For the fun work there was no time, only on the weekends. I'm very proud of the team that I helped building, every single person is great, but it's not something that I'm made for.
It sort of started when had sessions with a personal coach. He asked us to imagine us at the end of the year. I imagined myself outside on some sort of mountain, jeans and white shirt, with a big and confident smile on my face. No one else there, no computers, no big organisation. That was the first moment where I thought that I might not get towards this goal when I stay in my role. I could not leave yet, I hardly had any savings and my job was not done yet. So I started saving.
